Good Evening! Today I am just going to write about some random ideas that I have been thinking about.
For example, I would like to have a more successful blog/website. I know to do this I need to write more, craft more, take more photos, in general just constantly be doing more for that to become a reality. I constantly have so many ideas about different things that I should be doing and making and creating. I need to dedicate a time for me to be able to explore these thought and dictate them out on to paper. But… see with this thought, there becomes the instance of all of the random thoughts that pop into my head at random times…. I am over thinking this. Here is one of my main problems… I think really fast, get a lot of ideas and than I over think them and still never quite get them done. Maybe yoga or something like that would help me focus better, or maybe just less caffeine. 🙂 Never!!! 🙂
Other things that I have been thinking about lately are a lot about making my own ideas into reality. Like setting a plan and executing them until finished polished and printed. I need to start holding myself more accountable. There isn’t anyone else that is going to do this for me and if I want to be some kind of artist, I owe that to my self and my art. I know that everyone uses New Years as a starting point to renew your life on a new fresh page of the calendar, but why can’t I just pick a random day or month? I think that I should choose something more random, a date more like me, maybe Sept 1st? Have this as my new beginnings, a new chapter in this book. To really start holding my self to a standard that is going to get more things accomplished. I know that so far I have done a pretty good job, way way better than I have in the past, but there needs to be more, more action, more work, more effort.
All in all I guess the summary of this blog was about me and making more time for myself and my arts, well…. now to get to it! ❤ ❤ ❤
I found this image yesterday and it really struck a cord with me. I think that it sums up all of the things that I need to remember and strive for each and everyday. I think that those are the keys to being happy and leading a life of love.
Now the goal is to think about this image and try to live accordingly. I have been in a transitional period of time since December when my world got shook up. It has been a time when I needed to really think about the direction my life was headed and decide if where it was headed I was ok with, which or course I wasn’t. I was headed in a direction to work in a bar for the rest of my life and that would just be a sin to waste this talents that I have been blessed with.
I needed to take this time and try and focus my energies into my art and photography. There of course was still things that I needed to learn and just get out there and try. You can’t fail or succeed if you don’t even try. I am finding some to be amazing adventures that are taking me to places and meeting people that I would have never met and also to a lot of hard work and frustration. I understand that following a dream like this is going to take a lot of work and constant marketing and putting myself out there. I just hope every night that it works and something just clicks at the right time.
Right now I think I just need to start producing as much work in all of my specialty area as possible. One of them is bound to get me somewhere and possibly even all of them. I know, think big right? I need to have my camera with me at all time, no excuses, you never know when you are going to come across an amazing moment that you were just lucky enough to have your camera with for. Also I need to start exploring “the list” This is something that I have been adding projects to for years, dating all the way back to college dorm life. The more you create and experiment the further you can take your imagination and it should show through to other area of my life as well as things that I have been doing for years may come into a new light. ❤
As I sit here, thinking about what I should be doing with my life, I am at a crossroads.
I am currently under-employed and am trying to get my own art/craft/photography business off the ground. It’s such an under taking, most days I just want to hide under the covers and not come out. I know that these sort of things aren’t meant to be easy, but to find the motivation to do them isn’t easy either. I always blame other things in my life for taking president, when I need to start realizing that I am the most important thing and focus more on myself and what its going to make my own life better, I will be happier, cause in the end that is all that matters.
I know that I am meant to work in an artistic position, but sometime it feels like it’s so hard to break through everything and everyone and be let in. I just need to re-create the rules for my own world and as long as I am constantly working on it and different things to make the business bigger and more well known, it will pay off.
I know that I need to put more in to get more out. I need to follow this mantra, everyday. Maybe I should make an inspirational word block of that, ha!
I just needed to get this off my chest and maybe if I read it enough and start believing in my self more I can actaully start making things happen for me and my future as an artist. No let’s get to work, huh?!?
Here are a couple of shots from two different photo shoots that I did recently. On the left is Brenton, we went to Lake Calhoun and wondered around, I love the lake and the shadow of the city in the background. On the right is Reece, I took him to the Stone Arch Bridge. I love the urban look that we got with his pictures. These two boys are pretty special to me and I am glad that they let me use them as my beginner models. ❤
I really am enjoying the whole photographer process, since for so many years I have been the one stuck behind the computer. It’s nice to get out into the world and behind the camera.
I hope that I can grow this little en devour of mine into something that I can be successful at and possibly make money too. It would be the best life to be able to work for myself and be an amazing feeling to be able to do that for myself. This is something that every artistic person dreams about for their life. I just need to keep working at it, harder and harder, everyday and the possibilities are endless.