It has been a little bit since I wrote on here. I feel horrible about my lack of communication on my artistic journey. There were somethings that happened in my personal life that I let take over me for a little while, but now I am back on the horse and ready to create even more beautiful things again.
I did manage to create a couple of things during this time that I am proud of. The melted crayon heart is the representation of how I felt for the last couple of months. I am not completely out of the hole yet but at least now I have a shovel and a flashlight. I saw a lot of crayon art on the website pinterest, but they were just crayons glued to the canvas with the labels still on them and melted down to create a dripping look. I just pushed this generic idea and thought that this would be a good way to express all of the feelings that I had inside of my own heart. I had been thinking a lot about how each relationship leaves a scar on your heart and the dark blotches are those scars. There is still red because of my belief that there is still love left within me but that there is pain and hurt as well. I think that this is a fare representation of me. I really like the end result and am in the process of making another one of a different emotional connection. If you know me, I bet you can guess this shape pretty easily.
The other item that I created was my inspiration word block. This ones story is kind of suggestive of all of the things that were about to happen. I don’t really have a good reason why I choose this word at the time, it just stood out to me. I’d been searching for a word to use for this project and I kept running across this one, must have been a sign. I really like how it turned out, I used a couple of different things to make this, like the flowers are all handmade by me and the letters were cut from my circut machine. I really like how it looks kinda vintage. I will also be creating more of these with different words and looks. This is something that I can create to be fully customizable to anyone or any room that they would want to put it in.
I am still working on other things too, new ideas and old ideas that were never executed. This years plan is to make things happen for me in the art world. I need to move on from the bar scene as my primary and make my life about what I love to do. I realize that i have been stuck in a hole, that is the service industry. Now, don’t get me wrong, I still love it and I love all of the people I know in it. I just need to not primarily rely on it anymore and I need to follow my passion. As scary as it may be, I just have to.
“If it were easy, it wouldn’t be worth it” Right?