It’s been awhile

It has been a little bit since I wrote on here. I feel horrible about my lack of communication on my artistic journey. There were somethings that happened in my personal life that I let take over me for a little while, but now I am back on the horse and ready to create even more beautiful things again.

I did manage to create a couple of things during this time that I am proud of. The melted crayon heart is the representation of how I felt for the last couple of months. I am not completely out of the hole yet but at least now I have a shovel and a flashlight. I saw a lot of crayon art on the website pinterest, but they were just crayons glued to the canvas with the labels still on them and melted down to create a dripping look. I just pushed this generic idea and thought that this would be a good way to express all of the feelings that I had inside of my own heart.  I had been thinking a lot about how each relationship leaves a scar on your heart and the dark blotches are those scars. There is still red because of my belief that there is still love left within me but that there is pain and hurt as well. I think that this is a fare representation of me. I really like the end result and am in the process of making another one of a different emotional connection. If you know me, I bet you can guess this shape pretty easily.

The other item that I created was my inspiration word block. This ones story is kind of suggestive of all of the things that were about to happen. I don’t really have a good reason why I choose this word at the time, it just stood out to me. I’d been searching for a word to use for this project and I kept running across this one, must have been a sign. I really like how it turned out, I used a couple of different things to make this, like the flowers are all handmade by me and the letters were cut from my circut machine. I really like how it looks kinda vintage. I will also be creating more of these with different words and looks. This is something that I can create to be fully customizable to anyone or any room that they would want to put it in.

 

I am still working on other things too, new ideas and old ideas that were never executed. This years plan is to make things happen for me in the art world. I need to move on from the bar scene as my primary and make my life about what I love to do. I realize that i have been stuck in a hole, that is the service industry. Now, don’t get me wrong, I still love it and I love all of the people I know in it. I just need to not primarily rely on it anymore and I need to follow my passion. As scary as it may be, I just have to.

“If it were easy, it wouldn’t be worth it” Right?

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just thinking…

As I sit here, thinking about what I should be doing with my life, I am at a crossroads.

I am currently under-employed and am trying to get my own art/craft/photography business off the ground. It’s such an under taking, most days I just want to hide under the covers and not come out. I know that these sort of things aren’t meant to be easy, but to find the motivation to do them isn’t easy either. I always blame other things in my life for taking president, when I need to start realizing that I am the most important thing and focus more on myself and what its going to make my own life better, I will be happier, cause in the end that is all that matters.

I know that I am meant to work in an artistic position, but sometime it feels like it’s so hard to break through everything and everyone and be let in. I just need to re-create the rules for my own world and as long as I am constantly working on it and different things to make the business bigger and more well known, it will pay off.

I know that I need to put more in to get more out. I need to follow this mantra, everyday. Maybe I should make an inspirational word block of that, ha!

I just needed to get this off my chest and maybe if I read it enough and start believing in my self more I can actaully start making things happen for me and my future as an artist. No let’s get to work, huh?!?

Flexing those Design skills

I love when it rains. Every time, just open the window, turn on the music, grab a glass of wine and sit here in front of this mac and create something. This time it was something special for a friend of mine, Jaron and Eleve Productions. He is putting on a fashion show to help the awareness of the AIDS/HIV epidemic. He needed someone to do the flyers and of course I would love to help!!!

Here is what I came up with for my first attempt. I really like it.

New Flower Design

My little paper flower, isn’t it cute?

This is one of the newest flowers that I am creating. This photo makes it look much larger than it actually is, it fits in the palm of your hand. I am currently just make tons and tons of these in many different colors. I have a few different projects in mind and when I complete those I will post the photos. I also will be selling them on etsy. When I do that I’ll link it up on here. I am just finally happy to be making things again!

A poem

This poem is from the, Where I’m from” template made famous by George Ella Lyon.

Here is my version, it’s a little rough but that’s me.

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I am from a big city that calls to the features of a small town, from old victorian houses with ample trees and fascinating views.

I am from the houses and yards filled with family and laughter filled with the essence of my heritage.

I am from lily of the valley and a lush garden tended by an amazing little woman.

I am from  home-made tortillas and loud boisterous voices, Isabell and Alzada — quick and witty, stubborn and caring, easily loved.

I am from the hopes of a grandmothers will for her baby boy to live and prayers of a mother that only wished for one little girl.

From lone adventures deep into the banks of snow and always knowing that I will be ok.

From home-made icing and the beater made for licking, this is prime photo time.

I am from a catholic atmosphere, with values were hidden away in the corner room, except on Wednesdays.

I’m from winter carnivals and cathedrals, with the ever changing seasons that are unplannable yet comforting at the same time.

From fast cars and chalking tires to shopping on the weekends, girls afternoon out.

I am from the combination of two cultures, mixed into one. A perfect storm of a girl who doesn’t make sense and yet does all at the same time.

Today is the beginning of my New Year

Here’s to make new things happen and changing life for the better!

I have been thinking about starting one of these for a long time. (and now I have!!)

A place for me to talk about the many things that happen in my life and inside my head.

Hopefully, this can be a space to help me sort out things and get them out on to a concrete place. I think that the creativity will be better, or at least documented, if I try and explore it on here.

Well… Let’s see where this new path takes me.