Good Evening! Today I am just going to write about some random ideas that I have been thinking about.
For example, I would like to have a more successful blog/website. I know to do this I need to write more, craft more, take more photos, in general just constantly be doing more for that to become a reality. I constantly have so many ideas about different things that I should be doing and making and creating. I need to dedicate a time for me to be able to explore these thought and dictate them out on to paper. But… see with this thought, there becomes the instance of all of the random thoughts that pop into my head at random times…. I am over thinking this. Here is one of my main problems… I think really fast, get a lot of ideas and than I over think them and still never quite get them done. Maybe yoga or something like that would help me focus better, or maybe just less caffeine. 🙂 Never!!! 🙂
Other things that I have been thinking about lately are a lot about making my own ideas into reality. Like setting a plan and executing them until finished polished and printed. I need to start holding myself more accountable. There isn’t anyone else that is going to do this for me and if I want to be some kind of artist, I owe that to my self and my art. I know that everyone uses New Years as a starting point to renew your life on a new fresh page of the calendar, but why can’t I just pick a random day or month? I think that I should choose something more random, a date more like me, maybe Sept 1st? Have this as my new beginnings, a new chapter in this book. To really start holding my self to a standard that is going to get more things accomplished. I know that so far I have done a pretty good job, way way better than I have in the past, but there needs to be more, more action, more work, more effort.
All in all I guess the summary of this blog was about me and making more time for myself and my arts, well…. now to get to it! ❤ ❤ ❤
St. Paul, Minnesota
I took this photo from Harriet Island on Sunday afternoon after the Grand Old Days parade. I was on the drive home from Mom and Dad’s house and thought… I don’t have a good photo of the city that raised me. I was literally downtown St. Paul everyday, being an only child and having two working parents I often would wander around the sky-ways, between both of their jobs. I did so so often that most of the local shop owners knew me and would look out for me. Now Dad works down at Harriet Island and I just love the view when I stop by to say hi. I know that a lot of people from the twin cities that think that each of the cities are far apart but coming from St. Paul and now living in Minneapolis, I think I couldn’t be luckier than to live where we have to major metro area so near, I guess that river side fear never got to me. So when I drive home from my many road trips, seeing this skyline means I’m home, at last.
As I sit here, thinking about what I should be doing with my life, I am at a crossroads.
I am currently under-employed and am trying to get my own art/craft/photography business off the ground. It’s such an under taking, most days I just want to hide under the covers and not come out. I know that these sort of things aren’t meant to be easy, but to find the motivation to do them isn’t easy either. I always blame other things in my life for taking president, when I need to start realizing that I am the most important thing and focus more on myself and what its going to make my own life better, I will be happier, cause in the end that is all that matters.
I know that I am meant to work in an artistic position, but sometime it feels like it’s so hard to break through everything and everyone and be let in. I just need to re-create the rules for my own world and as long as I am constantly working on it and different things to make the business bigger and more well known, it will pay off.
I know that I need to put more in to get more out. I need to follow this mantra, everyday. Maybe I should make an inspirational word block of that, ha!
I just needed to get this off my chest and maybe if I read it enough and start believing in my self more I can actaully start making things happen for me and my future as an artist. No let’s get to work, huh?!?